Why Can't I be Loved?

The title says it all.

Lonely, Sad, frustrated. That about sums up how i feel today. Men are to blame, so are movies. I feel as tho the movies had made me hope for a fairy tale, something that doesn't exist. There are no happily ever afters. Heartbreak, unhappy marriages, divorce. . . Hurting someone because you're a selfish bastard who doesn't spare anyones feelings but your own. Hurting someone you love by having sex with someone other than the one you claim to love. Love. I don't believe in it. I believe it itself is a fairy tale. I want so desperately to believe that i will be one to have a happily ever after.

I thought about being the girl who could have meaningless sex with any stranger i come across and not feel anything. I couldn't do that.

I thought about being the girl who wouldn't care if her husband/boyfriend were cheating on them with another person and keep him around just for the fear of being alone. I couldn't do that either.

I want a man to love me and only me. I want to love one person, and one person only. I want the guy to come after me, because i fear rejection. I don't want to end up with a broken heart, I've managed to keep the heart break away for a while, but i think i ended up heartbroken anyway.

I want a fairy tale and i blame the movie industry. I just want to be loved.

What Gives?

Well, Hi again. I really am terrible at keeping up with this thing.

Here's the reason i'm writing now. . .

So I was watching Nancy Grace on CNN the other night and they are talking about a newborn infant found dead in a Casino Bathroom in Las Vegas. Unbelievable! Nevada has a "safe haven" law that enables a woman to drop off her newborn to any health care center or police center or pretty much anywhere and have NO questions asked. Why then would a mother, do this to the child? Now, all the details aren't available yet, but still! It makes me absolutely SICK. What is the deal with people these days? I hope they find the bitch and do something terrible to HER. Even if the baby had died before it was thrown in the garbage can, or if it was a stillborn, what makes someone feel that it is just ALRIGHT to throw it away???? I want to know everything about this story seeing as i was just in Vegas a while ago. . .

Had a great time by the way! I recommend everyone goes :-)